D​.​R​.​A​.​W. (Do Right And Win)

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released August 25, 2014

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Track Name: Welcome To The Jungle
[Verse 1]
Ok listening to Manic, have your thoughts stricken and panic,
Kill em all, Write a song, Strip your ball, Play along,
Never thought I'd ride along, when I'm coming with these rivals,
And these elders tryna crush my dream, I'm losing all of my idols,
So I get to the rapping, I'm avid though, unbelievable when your about to blow,
Mexico, doing what I do, when bitches really wanna give head to go,
And I can't really stop myself, take your contribution with a grain of salt,
Everybody wanna be the next, Mike or the Spike Lee,
I be myself and I make that shit unlikely,
No matter what it's comfortable,
I just wanna win a Gammy but my pops said it's impossible,
Fuck that shit no matter what, I do what I can and I raise the bar,
Never comprehend what it's like to beat the jungle and Ima make it far.

[Speech]
"There comes a time,
In every mans life,
Where he, must stand up and fight for humility,
And against the forces that create poverty,
For that, is only a distant dream"

[Verse 2]
Tired of saying I'm tired of it when I haven't even really achieved this shit,
Back to the rat race I am in,
Consequentially here to win,
Don't really care about you rappers, that just wanna constantly talk and act,
Like everybody that's on mainstream radio, never really understood that fact,
Just let your personality shine out to the hills of Colorado,
I naturally let myself be the greatest just to see a better tomorrow,
And I'm sorry if that's too political,
I envy the fool, that dropped outta school,
To make a better life then those who were cool, and everybody really appreciates you dude,
Goddamnit and I'm really loving Hip Hop,
Only thing there for me when all of this poverty struck,
Kill em with kindness like Danny Devito all in his prime,
Or maybe do it like Joe Pesci when you ain't arriving on time,
Miley Cyrus teaching these young girls how to Twerk,
While Drake teaching em how to stay loyal, man it's gon' work,
Fuck these reality shows, nothing at all to be learnt,
Brainwashed people that had half of all their feelings burnt.

[Chorus x2]
They stand before me,
But they can't control me,
So Ima keep it real now,
So take a walk on my ground.

[Verse 3]
Messed with the mistress,
Step to my mission,
Fuck with the bitches,
And I know,
Are you Asian or not?
Maybe I could take you back to my spot,
Is really how I used to think,
When I was young and believed that I was King,
When every day at least contained a feast,
Different when I had no food to eat,
Life is a constant cycle of struggle and a bit of fun,
Work hard for your funds, heart broken by love and I'm really done,
Gotta get rid of the pain, swallowing drugs,
And it's shocking that I had to see you in that state of mind, it's fucked.

[Chorus x2]
They stand before me,
But they can't control me,
So Ima keep it real now,
So take a walk on my ground.
Track Name: History
[Verse 1]

Rap with the bombs and I start the ignition,
Carve em up with all the rhymes and I leave an incision,
I don't really care at all if you tell me you didn't
As long as I don't find out when the truth it was written,

But let me, dig in to these bitches that are really not Kosher
Cause no matter what we do, man the relationship is over,
But you crying and you sorry that it really did change,
But life is funny when we strangers to this damn day,
Haven't picked up my Xbox in like 20 months,
Came to the conclusion that I gotta stop smoking blunts,
Realizations not a kid anymore is just way too much
And it's tough, find out that you living pregnant, damn it sucks,
Fuck it, I'm learning while you are all bludging,
And I got things on my mind and I ain't never really loving
But, buried your brain in that chemical,
Moderation is key when you providing up all of these seminal
thoughts, to the greater purpose in life that we searching,
In this circle of endearment and your soul hurting,
And I can see it in your eyes, you are so certain,
About the closed minded society that we were really birthed in.

[Chorus]

And we new to this game, and we going this far,
Might as well push to start,
And you can't change this history,
But, But,
We just wanna know,
What, What,
Where we going though,
And you can't, and you cant change this history,
And you can't, and you can't change this history.

[Verse 2]

Damn so I'm back at it again, man your only friend
Back when we were younger used to pump breaks,
Skateboards used to break, always going to lunch late,
Man we fucked girls, lifted weights, bumping the dopest mixtapes,
Thinking back to that shit make me so depressed,
Sometimes I'm writing these songs have nobody to impress though,
I mean does anybody listen to my shit daily,
Mic touching my lips, calling it quits maybe,
Crazy that I have this circle of thoughts,
Arguing over these impeccable plots against the enemy,
Chemistry that I gotta infuse together,
To be master of my words when I'm writing these letters,
And it's hieroglyphics, the shit that we do with wishes,
Like when i wish for some of my homies to come back alive,
Something that selling your soul could surely achieve,
And I strive, to be more Holy then Christmas Eve and I've arrived.

[Chorus]

And we new to this game, and we going this far,
Might as well push to start,
And you can't change this history,
But, But,
We just wanna know,
What, What,
Where we going though,
And you can't, and you cant change this history,
And you can't, and you can't change this history.
Track Name: Mamacita
[Hook]
I just wanna know, whats the fucks up?
I just wanna see, you get your time up,
I just wanna know, why you gave up?
I just wanna see, you get your head up.

[Verse 1]

Check it, cause I'm really grinding it out how I'm supposed to,
I'm leading my team to victory like Eric Spoelstra,
The rap games so fucked up now that I came,
And I can't comprehend all my competitors deranged,
After I pulled em apart with all my words and the rhythms,
Might as well stop, turn your focus to journalism,
And it's funny what kind of life that we are all living,
And I'm so sorry if i ever dissed you a smidgen,
Tie the message to the bird and I shoot down the pigeon,
If this my last song, last verse you failed to respect it,
I give 110 percent even if you gon' wreck it,
10 years rapping man I guess that makes you pro,
That means for me I fucken got 7 years to go,
Tryna do this shit for all them lil Serbian kids,
Who never got to see somebody make it till I did my bid,
Your kids will play my music if the radio won't.

[Hook x2]
I just wanna know, whats the fucks up?
I just wanna see, you get your time up,
I just wanna know, why you gave up?
I just wanna see, you get your head up.

[Verse 2]

Retrospect fans, yeah they see this improvement,
Curious Tales, Teddy bears, its all part of the movement,
They hated on me when I dropped that pop song,
Didn't think I could rap now they really on my dick long,
But I'm never going back to that wack shit I'm outy,
They doubt me, they don't fucken understand at all how he,
Could go from one style switching flows to the next,
It's called progression you punks had to put shit into check,
Got the metal fans saying that my shit is so dope,
But the dance fags hope that I choke on a bone,
Can't please everybody, that's just defeating the purpose,
Music is subjective no matter what your fucken net worth is,
But I, switch it some how, some way,
Single still blasts in these airwaves, mingle in my fast days, hey
Still feel like the average Joe who doesn't know,
How to blow up in this music thing, damn, forever dope.

[Hook x2]
I just wanna know, whats the fucks up?
I just wanna see, you get your time up,
I just wanna know, why you gave up?
I just wanna see, you get your head up.
Track Name: Hip Hop Is What Made Me
[Verse 1]

And I, never get told shit motherfuckers stay low key, in my family,
Barely know anything about me, people that raised me,
And the ones that raised them with their friends and their colleagues,
Social pressures gotta act manly,
Reality struck unbelievably, far and wide where the evil be,
Damn like an outsider in my own home, and it's likely,
That i'll never feel close to anybody again,
Sorry to offend or vent but it's a must
Been fucked over way too many times to trust, and its signs of lust, its scandalous,
Wow another lifestyle I'm tryna live,
Praise to the King and the feast we begin, damn
I learnt the hard way with Juice and Gin,
That Snoop Dogg really gon' portray to me,
High School bitches spill the tray on me,
Hard way of learning the struggles of life,
Poetic injustice that I convey on the mic,
It's like, why the fuck do I even have a phone,
No responses when I keep it on the low,
People start hitting me up just to hang,
When I'm busy as hell doing work it's insane,
But when I'm bored outta my mind sometimes,
I can't catch a break its selfish so I write rhymes,
Honestly I feel like I'm only liked just as a rapper,
But not as a friend who's got thoughts to capture,
Or these emotions that project in laughter.

[Chorus x2]

Ya'll don't understand me,
Ya'll don't see what I've seen,
You want what I just can't be,
Hip hop is what made me.

[Verse 2]

Damn last saw you in the open note,
Last word spoken to me made me choke,
And I can't believe that you overdosed,
We were just friends to the very end,
Told me to go fuck myself before it sends,
All the wrong messages in the lens,
Really worked hard just to gon' make you stop,
Borrowed money from me to get clean,
Never ended up happening, was the dream,
And it all became shattered,
Loyalty the only thing that ever really mattered,
Down to me and my family,
But I guess you're part of Gods plan now,
Wish you had kids so I could make them proud,
Carry on your name above the ground,
But that's life i guess,
Take everything away from you, not to stress,
But how the fuck am I supposed to chill,
How the fuck am I supposed to eat,
It all became as sad as that robbery,
That was pulled onto me,
Sends chills down my back that you gone,
And I can't believe that I'm really writing this song.

[Chorus x2]

Ya'll don't understand me,
Ya'll don't see what I've seen,
You want what I just can't be,
Hip hop is what made me.
Track Name: Childhood Reminisce
[Verse 1]

This my dream,
Light up with the gasoline,
Spark up and motivate,
Build the pressure up on my plate,
Man I'm conceal my fate,
Never put it up to your hands, hands,
But damn it's so late,
You lost like 50 fans, damn,
When you really run away,
Give back to the holidays,
The things that we always love,
Change for a minute man just look above,
Be yourself for just one day,
Just what you see in the mirror hey,
Don't even have the words to say,
It's all up to you at the end of the day,
Gambling, you an Alcoholic,
The world was yours and I'm acting brolic,
Honestly like a flower that never frolics,
From these pits of hell, when you on that carousel,
Spinning around your life is hurting,
Only child just constantly moving,
But damn I know it's difficult,
Find your balance and everything's gon' be minuscule,
Just make sure that you pay your dues,
As long as you got that love and trust,
Flowing right now through your system shut,
Evaluating never giving up,
And I just want to tell you that I feel it son,
Feel it more then ever son.

[Kid Speech]

[Verse 2]

Maybe I'm,
Tripping out and seeing 9,
On the cloud that I worship,
Read knowledge man and I forfeit,
But, it's a mistake that you made, that had us all fighting over,
That money, that came too early when you weren't really sober,
But I learnt a lot, no matter what kinda pills you popped,
And I had to get my bank, keyboard on who the hell you thank,
For the musical, creations that I really do,
Everybody stepping up to the plate it's kinda cool and I dig it dude,
Damn respect the musician cause all of this shit is so damn hard,
Had to do it for myself, supporting fam and I had no car,
But I worked my way up and did what I had to do,
Killed the radio first year on, I was so inspired by you,
But I look to the future, for better things to come my way,
Never ever meant to hurt ya, just my work cut you out the way,
That's just life I suppose, watch your back and you watch them foes,
No matter what someone say, you'll be getting punked by all these hoes,
Just learn to avoid that shit, by all these means that's necessary,
That's my only life lesson, just try and take it to the cemetery.
Track Name: Adrianna's Dream
[Verse 1]

I'm cool with it, the peoples that rock fitted's,
And I never understood your music with these critics,
But I, some how some way,
Found out it was your birthday, all the way up May,
Man sometimes I don't think that ima make it at all,
I keep trying hard motherfuckers faking the call,
This rap games so cruel now with all the lyrical,
It's like for me to even make it is a miracle,
But it's ageless, the question that I'm really gon' ask dawg,
And I'm asking the lord, if this is really my calling,
Cause I'm actually feeling like an alcoholic,
I don't really get my way soon and Ima keep on falling,
But damn, I'm really gonna choose with this lifestyle,
Of Go Getters that never really gon' pipe down,
Cause these motherfuckers wanna shit on our dreams,
Bunch of internet geeks with little self esteem fiends,
Damn, maybe it's just a part of the obituary,
That you had to join praying at the cemetery,
For your arrival at the pearly gates,
Me and the fans sometimes we just don't relate,
That's part of the connection that we make through this music,
Everything in moderation just never ever abusing,
Cause, we only living life day by day,
So make sure you making an impact in the right way.

[Chorus x2]

I just want you happy,
I wish you nothing but successes,
We building strength and learning lessons,
While you dealing with them stresses, oh

[Verse 2]

Damn, but I'm back with a vengeance,
Coming to kill those that dependent,
You went to jail but you never had a defendant,
But back to the lil topic needa discuss,
What's stronger is it love or is it really the lust,
Everybody want the simple life, no money involved,
It's impossible watching as the world evolves,
You gotta work hard, stack up your money young man,
Otherwise you'll be stuck up in that bullshit again,
Emotional wreck that you transform in the end,
They say if you can work hard, then you can play hard,
Just make sure you working, more then you playing bruh,
I know its a difficult concept to really understand,
But do you wanna be great, or just an average man,
That's the difference between a winner and a loser,
You either live to tell a tale or become the abuser.

[Chorus x2]

I just want you happy,
I wish you nothing but successes,
We building strength and learning lessons,
While you dealing with them stresses, oh
Track Name: Open Letter
[Verse 1]

Damn and I loved you so,
You turned your back but I never ever let you go,
Cause you were the only one that ever gon' care for me,
Remember your funeral man that shit really got to me,
But I guess that's part of life,
One way or another we die lonely in strife,
And it's crazy cause we all do so much just to fight,
For our right to fit in with somebody special,
Now that you mention it, felt it when I met you,
That you were really gonna be the best I had,
No reference to Drake but to the point where I'd meet your fam,
Gladly and I'd go to the patty, chilling with you while I'm in the studio,
So you know I respect your opinion even more then I did before,
Felt closer then ever I did, I realized,
Me and you together living reckless our child just might,
Even grow up to be as cool as us,
I hope so girl, I don't really mean to make a fuss,
But I just think life is beautiful when you appreciate it,
For what it's worth,
I keep going hard with music till it hurts,
Deep in my soul I might regret,
No matter what this is outta respect,
Cause I had to do it for my fucken mans and them,
Broke motherfuckers that had no chance to win,
All these years in the trap and their trying their best,
And they can't catch a break,
Imagine that, it's a lot easier for somebody like you,
With your daddy's money, and the clothes and BMW,
And if it was up to me, my whole family would sin,
But that was the younger kid in me, not the 20 year old,
Who's got goals and ambitions with really somewhere to go,
I wanna escape but you keep me on the low,
Keep me down and depressed with not a place to turn,
Writing poetry man it's like a remedy to burn,
I was teaching you but you never wanna learn,
I guess not everybody's cut out for that,
Just give it your all, mind power in fact,
It's a shame our relationship wasn't picturesque,
Everybody wants the same but that's just life i guess.

[Outro]
Track Name: Erykah's Lament
[Verse 1]

Erykah, Erykah, where the hell you been,
Can't believe you turned your life all the way to the streets,
Man what the fuck would you do if I left you,
Would you keep moving forward, and prove that your special,
I'll let you,
But dammit and you really broke and needing that rescue,
I got love for everything you do and man its so stressful,
That I'm rhyming with the words of these past ancestors,
Haven't met them yet in my past life I just might enter,
Another scope of life, surrounded by a bitch and wife,
Gotta make it no matter how I'm gonna pass this strife,
But dammit I, give props to them who camouflage,
Get away from the troubles in their lives till they realize,
It's not the fucken right way that they are doing it,
Always been pursuing it, till I saw you passed out in the gutter,
Another man finished his job and kicked you out,
A lot of potential decided up on another route,
And I'm really sorry, wasn't ever there when you needed it,
My greediness, steered you into the wrong disobedience,
And I'm feeling it worst every singular day,
Sometimes I don't even have the fucken right words to say,
To fix up something that wasn't even partially my fault.

[Chorus]

[Verse 2]

Erykah, Erykah, where the hell you been,
Can't believe you turned your life all the way to the streets,
And I took a lot of my time when I trust you,
Give it to these people that talk shit and cuff you,
But just understand that they are just doing their job,
No use arguing or fussing or just praying to God,
For another chance at doing it all better at life,
You had a baby it's not yours, take care of it right,
It may be difficult for you to get some more of the cash,
But just promise that you'll stop on the corner selling your ass,
Cause your body is a temple you gotta learn to respect it,
No matter what somebody says just never neglect it,
Cause they'll leave you bruised, crying on the corner at night,
Then you confused, wondering why you cant be a wife,
Man that's just the sad part of it all,
Give your everything and just watch how you fall,
It's a cruel world, wasn't meant for some us to really live,
But we here now might as well stick it out and do our bid,
Was really proud when you got your first crib,
But it's sad to see what living in it really did,
Another brothel just damaged by the system,
Man I hope you don't come out of this as another fucken victim.

[Chorus]
Track Name: The River Ft. Larissa Lambert
[Verse 1]

These, my confessions I'm a cheap motherfucker that's going in,
Got my friends to pay for my meals felt like a sucker now that I'm always borrowing,
But damn, my mentality flipped, completely changed,
Fuck that if you struggling, then I'm part of the game,
No matter what and I'm so deranged,
Bang, Bang with that logical,
My spending is so damn responsible,
I never had a fallout right with you,
But it was cause that damn whole deal came through,
Whoah, Whoah, in that Volvo I was made for all of this shit,
And I can't believe my old mind-state, this is how we really gon' live,
But, if i got a dollar and you ain't never really had no food to eat,
I guess that's 50 cents to last for the week,
Decorated my room right with them posters,
10 cents a pop when I am sober,
Couldn't believe there's a place for me,
That allows me to see my mistakes likely,
And lets me repent them quietly.

[Hook x2]

I give you all I've got, but you want more again,
With me to the top, yeah that's what you said,
Remember when you left me, back when I was young,
Just one slip of the tongue, from there on we were done.

[Verse 2]

They say that airports be more sincere,
Than wedding halls man you have no idea,
How damn true that whole statement is,
Just like hospitals that heard more prayers,
Than the walls of the churches, unfair,
Shits depressing man, it's so unclear,
Fiscal year, when I bridge my fear,
I was producing my own things,
But,
Hip Hop, in that top drop,
We riding around till the sun stops,
Never really tried all them vitamins,
My music be acting like my Vicodin,
Crush it down and I snort it up,
For my women that always gotta blush,
Embarrassed to be round a guy like me,
Then I gained a bit of fame and now they see,
That, Ima nice dude,
That had a lil bit of trouble in the past,
Fixed it up and Ima dash real fast,
Straight for the Grammy that I'm supposed to win,
Maybe that's in the next year bin,
With that long list of all these accomplishments,
Heavy headed and I'm so confused,
About which fucken beautiful broad to choose,
Wu-Tang with that Bruce Wayne,
Sums up all of the fantasies I be living,
I'm killing em all with the micro-vision,
That I view when I'm talking bout this religion,
Bout who you are, where you been,
What kinda neighborhood are you repping,
But erase all them stupid allegations children,
And try to live old with these smart decisions, damn.

[Hook x2]

I give you all I've got, but you want more again,
With me to the top, yeah that's what you said,
Remember when you left me, back when I was young,
Just one slip of the tongue, from there on we were done.
Track Name: Concrete Rose Ft. Evalyn Sokias
[Verse 1]

Had to jump on a plane I'm really bout to go to San Fran,
Waiting at the wrong terminal to pick up your bags,
Never showed up I guess you really missed your flight,
My phone outta range I can't even call you tonight,
We landed in the city, the big city of dreams,
All the lights, camera flashes and everything in between,
But it's ugly on the low, I'm drinking to get past it,
Conversations seductive women they love my accent,
Your face crossed my mind when I was looking at hers,
Venice beach dreaming inspirational for this verse,
My mystique, indeed changes when I'm already over you,
1000 miles away glorifying this Serb fool,
And I caught a lot of flack, updating with these pics,
Amsterdam on a boat, Japanese on my lips bitch,
And it's crazy to think, just last year I had no dreams,
Now I'm in LA smoking on the greatest shit ever seen,

[Chorus]

I'm over here, chasing my dream,
i know that it ain't easy, without you here,
Your over there, chasing your dream,
I know that it ain't easy, without me there.

[Verse 2]

We Skyped for a minute, then I jetted,
I left on the bus never imagined I would ever regret it,
3 hours later, moving my bags I'm in a new place,
Something different it changed you no longer in my space,
But it don't matter, enjoying the street culture,
Offerings and marketing I'm getting real closer,
Bumping that Kanye before I really gotta board this plane,
Looking for closure, that we'll maybe never meet again,
Perfect little chance to perfect these lyrics and jams,
Before I head back, yeah tip the delivery man,
And it's so strange how life can get the better of you,
With the bird's eye view, and the Mediterranean cool,
Why is this my reality for only 1 month at a time,
Realizations gonna drop you at the bordering line,
Christmas in Japan and I really feel like I'm the man,
Exotic women difficult to get into their pants, damn.

[Chorus]

I'm over here, chasing my dream,
i know that it ain't easy, without you here,
Your over there, chasing your dream,
I know that it ain't easy, without me there.
Track Name: Troubled Minds Ft. Alexandra Younes
[Verse 1]

Kid shoots up his school cause he's pissed,
And he copies all of this shit that he sees,
On TV with that whole screwed up box,
He's got instincts on killing, 17 people like the kid did,
In his own home with the video game but he missed,
Hit a girl barely turned 15, then he blows his own brains,
Man, tell me please,
How this controversy happens right now in front of me,
Unbelievable to really see,
Then they blame music, not the movies that they gon' see,
Or their parents who don't know their own kids,
And I'm sick to my core, bumping Tupac Shakur,
But never had violent tendencies,
To my own people man and it really seems,
Cowardly to be fair and discreet,
These kids are misguided, it's up to me,
Show em the positive shit you could be,
Without losing your life, with a gun and a fight,
Ending others causing disbelief,
And this grief man it gon' never end,
When you lost all your friends,
And you cant concentrate anymore man it really seems,
You drop out of school with the similar themes,
And the rest of the teens,
Who were popular in class,
Tryna be queens,
No longer cocky,
Nobody cares about your ass,
They scarred and they constantly scared,
And they don't know what they fuck they gon' do next,
Man I hate to tell you but they don't know what they gon' do next.

[Rap Hook x2]

Man all them troubled minds, we pray and pray for them troubled kids,
Troubled minds, we pray and pray for them troubled kids,
What did they do, what did they do?

[Singing Hook]

Lift your voice up, make it clearer,
God does hear your prayer's he is here.

[Verse 2]

Now comes to the part of it, when you getting bullied all day at school,
You get so mad that you run through, any motherfucken obstacle,
Knock anybody down that gon' touch you,
But it's a bit too late cause you bottled it up,
Inside the whole time, it's dangerous,
Music tryna inspire this change in us,
Wow and I'm sick of it,
Can't believe that I witness this,
Gotta stand up for yourself right at the start,
Nothing's gon' happen I promise that part,
Remain strong you just gotta build up your heart,
Cause the cruel world's really gon' knock you down,
Whichever chance it gon' get, and that's for anybody that don't make a sound,
The quite kids that don't do anything, man they innocent,
But they really receiving it the worst,
Hope my son understand that first,
Ready for that man cause it's gon' hurt,
That's just part of life, you gotta graze your knees a few times,
And get up, wipe your eyes,
And thank God that at least you really alive,
At least for another day,
Survive now damn with all the pain,
If I did it man you def can to,
I had my own doubts but I believe in you,
Fuck that cutting shit,
It's not right if you really wanna live a life legit,
I know things are troubling,
But I'd do anything just to really gon' see you quit.

[Rap Hook x2]

Man all them troubled minds, we pray and pray for them troubled kids,
Troubled minds, we pray and pray for them troubled kids,
What did they do, what did they do?

[Singing Hook]

Lift your voice up, make it clearer,
God does hear your prayer's he is here.
Track Name: Beside You Ft. William Manukia
[Verse 1]

Imagine growing up poor, it's only part of another story,
The one that I hold really dearly, when I'm on 5th storey,
But I just wanna know what you felt when you did deploy me,
To another part of the town when you couldn't afford me,
But fuck it all, I was the kid that was adamant,
I know you always gon' cry and I ain't never up having it,
I'm really proud of it,
Had no reception on our telly, had to tell you when you ain't never ever gon' let me,
Hiding in shelter for 2 weeks with this canned food,
Young hopeless kid with his dreams going to Cancun,
Never reality when it struck,
That I would ever make it home, know it's fucked,
And I just wanted to give it up,
Lining up for a week for a litre of milk,
You slapped me if I ever messed around and it gon' spilled,
And I'm sorry if I ever caused you pain and the burden,
Deeper inside I just can't see that you were really up hurtin',
Bombs eventually scared the ruthless outta me,
The young visionary was frightened so excuses pardon me,
But I never had time to learn about all these manners,
Become a man before I ever learnt about that Santa.

[Chorus x2]

But no matter what you had to go through,
You've always got somebody here to hold you,
Yeah, my heart will find you,
Be right beside you.

[Verse 2]

I was lost didn't know who the fuck to blame,
Was it the Government, was it somebody else in this game,
Leaving dead bodies and innocent people burnt,
It's not humility I learnt, but rather agility that I worked,
Not a lick of English when I moved over and it was really hard,
Never complaining cause we were blessed and we were so far,
Doing what we can as a family with all the strong unit,
Handing out papers at 11 and I was not fluent,
Understanding it but always wanting that Buick,
But I always helped you out when you were sitting their viewing,
The 6 o clock news, fucking with the murder and war,
I ignored that shit and was just bumping that Tupac Shakur,
It was helping me out no matter what you could tell me,
Always had to work hard when I was up here and selling,
While my people back home they had to force feed,
Couldn't afford things,
Media covering up like a smoke screen.

[Chorus x2]

But no matter what you had to go through,
You've always got somebody here to hold you,
Yeah, my heart will find you,
Be right beside you.

[Verse 3]

All I ask is for forgiveness to whatever had happened,
I did the best I could to provide when I was just rapping,
You saw that as a hobby at first, until I made that shit work,
Paradigm flip, thinking like a damn immigrant,
But, if you could go to another country and do it,
Why can't I chase all my dreams, make them believe and learn it,
But you always had that title of the toughest of mothers,
And I thank you for it, taught me how to stand out from others,
It's a trait that you can't get from nobody else,
Rent we couldn't afford, the emotions that I felt,
Hungry to survive as a young kid with all these politics,
Did the best I could to treasure it over the lotteries,
And the fucken hypocrisies that I dealt with on the daily,
And I always turned my back when you ever wanted to pay me,
Cause I can't accept money from somebody that gave me lots,
Promise when my stocks go up Ima get you to the top.

[Chorus x2]

But no matter what you had to go through,
You've always got somebody here to hold you,
Yeah, my heart will find you,
Be right beside you.
Track Name: Wonderland Ft. Alexandra Younes
[Verse 1]

Wow, shed tears in the booth,
For all the homies that could never hear the truth (truth),
Rest in Peace, you passed so young, and I can't believe (believe),
That you're gone, so dumb, and I come like I'm Babylon,
Please give em back, that's what I'm saying when I'm praying oh lord, And I'm really gon' check my door,
Every morning tryna wait for you,
But I really had all these chores to do,
Animosity when that record due,
You encouraged me to start this rap shit dude,
And now you're gone, feeling like mist every time that you're wrong,
And you're surely missed,
But I'm sorry that I was so pissed,
For the stupid arguments that could've been flicked,
But now it's too late,
Put everything I have on this damn plate,
Just to see you back once more on this tape,
Mixtape just couldn't be dope without you,
Regret the mistakes I made just like you,
You were just a kid with brains, so insightful.

[Hook x2]
Why did you have to go? Why did you have to go?
Why did you have to leave? Why did you have to leave?
Praying to God and I do believe,
That one day me and you will meet.

[Verse 2]

But I'm back with a vengeance,
To make you proud and always know where the day went,
And I always use my time, wisely just like you advised,
I'm ill prepared for these forgotten lines,
I'm glad some of the boys were at the funeral,
But where were they when you were struggling, man I don't believe it, it's quite unusual,
But I don't mean to provoke,
I just miss when we laughed and we joked,
About the stupid old times at the Dam,
Society will never hold your hand,
And you proved that quote quite entirely,
You weren't really there when they robbed the tired me,
But I know if you were,
You would do everything just so you can concur,
And prevent that shit man just to occur,
We never smoked up without a blur,
But now that I think of it,
I had you so much into damn debt,
Wish I could take it all back cause I can't connect,
With anybody round me,
Flow in your image they understand now but man it's so unlikely,
So I'm depressed as fuck at work man so they all really tried to fired me,
Guess it was for the best, I really hated that job anyway,
I know you'd probably laughed at the last line,
If you were still alive to witness my shine,
I take over the world man it's all fine,
i gotta do what i really gotta do, so right.

[Hook x2]
Why did you have to go? Why did you have to go?
Why did you have to leave? Why did you have to leave?
Praying to God and I do believe,
That one day me and you will meet.
Track Name: Thank You Ft. Sahara Beck
[Chorus x2]
And I gotta thank you, for getting me here today,
I know that I, broke you and I left you,
But you're still here to stay.

[Verse 1]

Always thank the ones that provide my meals,
You think I'm never humble been blessed for years,
All they could get me was the same damn shoes,
That cost 30 dollars at bargains on 2's,
Wearing them for at least 3 years straight,
All they provide, just couldn't relate,
Too young when I started them jobs,
At 13, mowing lawns to help my Moms,
Paper runs at night it was hard,
It taught me work ethic so now I charge,
Straight for my dreams I thank ya'll both,
For teaching me when I really cut the rope,
Whenever life really gon' pull me down,
Loved my sound and I was proud of it, no matter what,
No Adderall, prescription or indecencies,
Became a lil older and bolder and less sober but I really really had to get,
My whole life in order and my raps on track with no forgery,
Yeah I'm tired but i never stop what I do or love,
Especially when i reach my limit up to the stars,
And everybody really want me to not get too far.

[Chorus x2]
And I gotta thank you, for getting me here today,
I know that I, broke you and I left you,
But you're still here to stay.

[Verse 2]

Damn we used to go coach surfing,
Wake me up when your mouth hurting,
I fucked you way too hard last night,
I apologize,
Won't happen until I rise again up in the morning,
Studio stumbling while I'm yawning,
Make all this money and have it all,
My people doing them so they can ball,
Signs of the times, with pathetic rhymes,
Producing hits with no quality,
Just to make a bit of that salary,
Never saying fuck the labels cause I never know,
Could be signed to one saving my life and then I'll blow,
Prove to you that I can make it big,
Fix you up and your sisters kid,
Give you a bit of that taste of the luxury life,
That I'll have one day if I'm really gon' put up a fight,
Otherwise we stuck in the loop,
Of living broke from roof to roof,
Every week barely affording that food,
Doing what we can do survive them dues,
Outsiders just think it's easy,
Closed minded people that just listen to Weezy,
I'm sorry if I offended you,
But me and you just so different and exquisite that it makes us unique,
GTA 5 all night while I kill the streets and I have to critique the seats,
And I'm really gonna head back now to the new sofa,
Suicidal state while I sit back now and I blast this Sosa,
And this ratchets over,
Nut no matter what I do what I love,
Even if it means that I lose you as a friend to the ski masks and gloves, When you selling drugs,
Bitches that I take these pictures with it, man it don't mean shit,
Showing this hyper sexual lifestyle that just don't exist,
So don't hit me with that "I know what you did last night" shit.

[Chorus x2]
And I gotta thank you, for getting me here today,
I know that I, broke you and I left you,
But you're still here to stay.